go ahead, just shit on the cupcakes.

birth celebration in california. I've never been one to be much of a birthdayzilla or one to enjoy when things are planned to be all about me. so a rave, surrounded by 40,000 strangers, dancing to chromeo live with lasers all over was perfection. thanks for all the birthday wishes from all of you wonderful friends. as for the one important friend who I didn't hear a single thing from on my birthday... its terrible to not be able to tell my best friend about amazing things that happen. Green doesn't look good on you.

I feel so redundant and all theroy no action. I guess its enough talk about cuttin ties, moving on, letting go and time to just really do it.
it also appears that I in fact am going to be doing this all by myself.
I can't keep penciling people into my plans anymore.
all I get out of that is a let down.

so many people have come & gone in my life.

I've learned the definition & witnessed the meaning of fickle friends, shallow company, & testosterone drunk boys.
when I make friends I want to be doing it in depth. long term.

no sluts.
no liars.
no cheats.
no douche fucks.
no manipulators.
no abusers.

honesty. empathy. integrity. & class. thats all.

people who trust me as much as I trust them.
people I know I can fall back on.

I don't play he said she said garbage, and if you don't trust me & I've never done you wrong, then I'm sorry I ever gave you the opportunity to.

disrespect me, lie to me, or play childish games - you will be cut immediately without a second thought.

my girls are my girls & I want to trust them with everything.
my boys are my boys & I want to know they will take care of me.

everyone whose been that person for me, thank you from the bottom of my heart.

heartless bitch mode might be in order.


intelligence is the key and you're definately locked out.