"After the events of last night Im bruised.
Emotionally.
Crazy people act like this.
Maybe I've finally driven myself mad.
Screaming out every bit of frustration inside my body, and I still don't think it's sunk in yet.
Brains can do funny things.
I'm at a loss for everything. My body has been running on auto pilot. Only now it's trying to run double time, to cover a double life. Nothing is okay about that. A girl should be accepted for who she is 150 percent, if you're "in it for the long haul" that is.
I can't pretend that these things don't bother me. I wont pretend that these things are not a huge part of me. Call it what you want. Childish, immature, stupid, lame...etc. 20 years old means I have a lot of ground to cover, faces to see, places to go, beers to consume, and mistakes to be made. End of story. I will not change who I am to suit anyone else.
I may be a drunk at times, but I have a good god damn time.
Momma, remember when I said you'd be there to help me pick up the pieces. I think it's time. Ily."
nm//
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