"I want to be your love
I want to make you cry
And sweep you off your feet
I want to hurt your pride
I want to slap your face
I want to paint your nails
I want to make you scream
I want to braid your hair
I want to kiss your friends
I want to make you laugh
I want to dress the same
I want to defend you
I want to squeeze your thighs
I want to kiss your eyelids
And corrupt your dreams
I want to crash your car
I want to scratch your cheeks
I want to make you sick
I want to sell you out
Want to expose your flaws
I want to steal your things
I want to show you off
I want to tell you lies
I want to write you books
I want to turn you on
I want to make you come
200 times a day
I want to dry your tears
Every time you're sad
I want to be what's happening
I want to be your only friend
I only go all the way
I want to be a beast
I want to make you proud
And play with your head
I want to take you out
Make you feel adored
And buy you everything
I want to hurt you bad
Make you paranoid
And say the sweetest things
I want to help you grow
Until for eternity
I want to be your what's happening."

christmas?

Its cold creeping into my veins.
Its warmth stolen from my extremities.
The white powder isn't intensifying my heart beat. 

No electric jolts. No feelings foreign.
But its everywhere. Everywhere.
Its on my hands.
Its on my face.
Shake to get it off me.
Its on the ground.
Its falling from the sky.
I hate it. I hate it.
Tis the season.

buzz kill.

I've been dying to talk to someone all day,
I'm just not sure if it was you.

it's no different.

"If you're so very entertaining
then why are you on your own tonight?
if you're so very good looking, why do you sleep alone tonight?
i know, 'cus tonight is just like any other night, that's why you're on your own tonight."

it's really over.

i loved you.
whole heartedly.
I swear I'll never come back and delete this no matter how nasty you are to me.